I'm not quite sure what got me thinking of this or why I want to write about it, I guess it's because I've been sick for almost a whole week and being at home is kinda depressing. Can't even stay standing up straight for more than a few minutes before I need to lie down again. I really hate being sick because when it hits me, it really really hits me. Well, I do get sick but I guess I'm use to that feeling that I consider it normal lol, after all I'm allergic to most brands of pain killers.

I guess because I was thinking about family and one thing led to another whilst lying in my bed thinking about the whole universe over and over. I came across this thing about people who've lost their friends and family etc. I'm not going to have a go at them or anything but some of them wallow for way too long. They've passed on, what you could've and should've said before they left is all but moot.

It's not to say I feel bad for people who have lost a close friend or family member but seriously, you are the one who's still alive so make the best of it. Why is it that we must finally care about a person once that person is gone? Is it conditioned in us to think that way?

Some people don't even know the real pain. Having someone close to you pass away without you witnessing it is much easier... Have you ever see a close one get burnt to a pulp as you run away scared like the little kid you were, screaming for help while the house went up in flames? You probably did and I have sympathy for you, no kid you ever have you go through such a horrid thing. Or have you ever had someone in front of you... unresponsive while he lays there waiting to die. All you can think of is how can this be happening. I see him breathing, his hands are still warm. Why won't he wake up? Why won't he wake up when I tell him to? Why won't he just open his eyes? That's the real pain. I don't want to drag it on.

Some people need to lighten up. Yes it was horrible. It doesn't give you the right to lecture people, it doesn't give you special considerations to attention for years after the unfortunate event. Some people can bitch about their life all they want but the fact is they still have theirs and they should do a lot more with it than bitching. Everday is a gift, no matter how miserable it is. You don't have to aim for the stars but just live happy and if you truly can't have happiness then just be content.

Call me inconsiderate and flame me but this is my humble opinion.