After a while being a student really sucks, constantly juggling work, well for the course I choose to do it demands some actual sitting down time (means no cramming) and amidst doing the work and actually working for money, I usually forget to look after myself. I'm pretty scrawny at the moment well probably not I'd say I'm at my normal weight, naturally skinny.

I remember when I got out of high school and studied at UNSW, every day I'd have to wake up at 5 in the morning, take a long ass bus trip and still get to the uni late at 9:45. Then have the evening lectures and tutes and get home at 10 at night. Everyday without fail, same thing over and over again and it drive me insane. I mean I love maths and and physics and making little circuit boards but fuck was it boring listening to an old guy talk about maths for 3 hours. I'm a hands on person, let me do the fucking problem so I can solve it already. Distinct maths for engineering was cool tho, never got my head around it but the lecturer was a hoot always talking about 'cute' equations.

The easy way out is probably working full time like I use to but hey I wanna do something, become famous and do what I love for a job I've realised I love talking with strangers, you can say anything because you know you'll never see them again. Which is probably why I'm so sociable being drunk lol must be a subconcious thing. I've always had to deal with people in the many jobs I've done (part from carpark cleaning, running down those stairs at night with no light on and stepping on a bum still haunts me).

Talking to alx on wednesday and she said there's a new course coming out and it's gotta do with game design, I thought I'd stop studying after this year but damn that course looks tempting. Might be weird studying together again but hey why not, this course has fee help so might as well make good use of it. I have to say of the many years I've played games the game industry is becoming bigger and bigger and bigger, it's not even considered geeky anymore, everyone plays video games and everyone loves them. Well maybe for me it's still geeky considering I use to play counter-strike on a semi professional level lol. We got dogged hard, nowadays people get sponsored to play but back then it was just a bunch of people who love a game too much.

I'm pumped about where my life is going because I have no idea where it's leading me. People say I'm typical aquarian whatever that means but isn't it natural to want something new? I like a change of pace and I love a good challenge and I like looking forward to what I don't know.

End of the year I could be moving out somewhere. With who I don't know yet but alx wants to move out too but I doubt I'd wanna move out with her seeing her bf is gonna tag along (hate the guy) think I'd much rather move in with tara than have to put up with him. BUT tara does live a fair bit away sorry babe lol. If I had a choice I'd live in newtown, the chaos in that place brings peace in me lol I don't know why but it's very comforting. Then again I love the bush too, but then again I love the beach as well. Well that's me in a nutshell, I love everything which makes me so indecisive. Being fucked up makes you appreciate a lot of things. Everyone should open their eyes once in a while some great things we have and we take them for granted.

Concetta one of the new girl at work.. totally overwhelmed at work being new and we were getting smashed, I have to say I was struggling and feeling the pressure but she comes up to me after all that and says "are you a choofer?" I'm like say what? lol. I mean honestly I can see why people think I'm a druggo or a stoner but yeah why stress? I do enough of that when I'm at home, stressing while working just make things worse and make you a grumpy person when you deal with customers. Relax, take a chill pill, sing along to the radio and everything will be all good by the end of the night. Not saying I haven't cracked the shits now and then but yeah it's a rare occasion. Working with people who know what they're doing is definitely better tho. But given they don't roster us on at the same times it kinda sucks. Which is why I love the wednesday team! miss tara closing with us but oh well she deserves a break. If I ever get the chance to I'll have to smack Sharry's head in for what he said to her. Am I glad I wasn't at the meeting because I probably would've lol.

This is almost a test to me, this year. Juggling tafe work, and working at AMF and looking after myself and still finding time to go out AND still finding time for myself. Bet all you oldies are going "that's life buddy" but yep I know and I'm getting use to it. I don't whinge about not having a better life anymore because I appreciate the one that's given to me. Could do with better looks tho but ah well, hate your parents ay? can't help if I'm naturally ugly THO if I was a girl I could cover it up with make up ay? jokes.

Anywho, this game design course should be good, according to alx this course is new and I still need to get the brochure for it but from what I've heard it's gonna be great! I can use some of my illustration skills for concepts and probably go from there and become a concept artist or even better storyboard artist for these games! FINISHED ILLUSTRATIONS, POSTERS? yep I'm fkn excited. If it calls for it UI design might be interesting too I can couple that together with my graphic design abilities. Considering I'm working a lot for a student and still doing my course I think next year it'll be a breeze if I do decide to keep studying.

If all else fails, I guess I'll have to travel the world and work at bars and cafes wherever I go win-win situation. To me life is about fun whether it be studying or not. In the end it's what you make it out to be, everyone can wish for fame and glory but to me I just want to find some happiness to make up for lost times. That's not to say settling down isn't an ideal of mine but I think being young is about having fun and trying out things before you ARE too old, we should be thinking of the unknown rather than what's set. How ironic ay that attitude I have is probably the very reason alx split up with me and me being by myself most of the time oh good times. Guess I'll always be the dreamer, god damn how aquarius of me! stupid horoscopes.

Here's to more weekend rants from me! I love talking about stupid shit!