Gotta love movies like "17 again" when miracles happen and good things come to bad people just because they realise their faults. No matter the morale or the biblical implications of this movie or however dull it was to the critics I still say we need more movies like this to lift people up.

Love is a funny thing it really is and I think the movie explains quite well how a person can drop everything for love and just how blinding it is. I loved the quote "when you're young everything seems like the end of the world". I don't think that applies to being young I think at every stage of our lives when something big goes wrong it's just some innate human reaction to think that way.

Unfortunately I can only say I've ever loved one person in my life so far and these movies tend to bring me back to those memories. Are they painful? no, not anymore. I use to lie to myself and say that letting her go is showing her how much I really love her but then the other part of me would say isn't that just giving up and practically handing her over to someone else without ever trying? Well now that I think back it's impossible to win. Love only ever works when it's returned, how can you make someone love you when that love is gone? It's denial... denial of something you invested in so much and not returned to you like you expected.

If I had a chance to start it all over again, I would do everything exactly the same because to me I never did anything wrong, if I was to change anything I just wish I had been happier or accepted my family sooner than later. Some may think a lover should understand and be there by your side but it really is burden. Even today I cannot say how sorry I am because words mean nothing and I can only continue to love her to pay back all the times I've weighed her down.

Many of my friends think I'm stupid and I guess I am. I've learnt to be selfish over the years because I've learnt that being selfless is the best way to send yourself into depression. Blame my upbringing is all I can say. My self-image and self confidence are probably non-existant no matter how many people tell me differently and just like not being able to make someone love you... you can't make me believe if I don't actually believe it myself. I've done some horrible things and I'm a horrible person but through these experiences I've become 'better'. So I'll say this again... my friends think I'm stupid and yeah... I am.

I'm stupid because I want to.

I love her with all my heart and I always will. Ever since the day I met her. I still remember that dorky girl sitting on the bench in an odd position outside the cinemas. She had the smile of an angel and the most gorgeous eyes in the world. Her voice was so sweet that I swore I would've melted and at that moment I thought to myself "I would love her forever if she decided to look my way".

No words can express how much I love her even now. Her presence still puts a smile on my face that I can't control. For what it's worth I'm glad I'm still able to love her because she is my friend. The best friend that I ever had. I don't care what others say and I don't care what others think and I don't care if she doesn't feel the same way as I do because just like not being able to make a person love you, you can't chose who you fall in love with

Sounds like I'm clingy doesn't it? Well guess what? I don't believe in only loving one person. I'll love that girl forever for sure but I'll love the next person just as much if not more. What's happened has happaned and I'm not in denial anymore, I appreciate the time together as we've grown better and wiser for it. She has taught me how to love, that I'm capable of being loved and the reality of committing to that special someone.

I love you and I always will. If I had a chance to do over I would just because of the great times we've had together. I never regretted a moment with you and I just wish I could spend more time with you

PS I know you don't even check dA anymore but just on the off chance you actually read this then yes, just because you're in lala land again you should come see me more biyach, or at least introduce me to a nice girl so I can also goto lala land

PS x 2 go watch "17 again" guys if you're a sucker for movies like "Suddeny 30".